A submissive Man

Most men love the idea of being great in bed. The notion they are able to satisfy their partner feeds their ego and makes them feel good about themselves. In fact a lot of men are likely to boast about their penis size and how well they are able to satisfy their partner. It may seem decidedly odd to most, but this is not me, not even close.

I have a small, well below average sized penis and have been told I am also poor at using it, cumming far too quickly. This could be disastrous, if were an Alpha male. However, what I like is being reminded of my short comings in the cock department (pardon the pun!). For me nothing is hotter than my wife telling me how pathetic my little cock is and that I will never be allowed inside her again. I actually want to hear how other men are bigger and better. 

Does the fact that I am submissive wire me this way? Almost certainly in part. A submissive loves nothing more than being put in their place.

As a teenager I suspected I was on the small side. I remember an incident as a teenager, whilst getting showered, a classmate, all be it not unkindly pointed to my dick and told me how much smaller it was than everybody else’s. This news hot off the press, spread through our year group pretty quickly. Anecdotally all of my friends claimed to be between 6 and 8. This led to me going home and measuring up. What I learned was my penis was 4 inches and I was much smaller than my peers. At that time it would be fair to say it bothered me.

Partly because it bothered me and partly because I wondered if my contemporaries had been exaggerating their size (what man would exaggerate his size!), I made a point of asking each of the women I slept with how I measured up. The responses varied from “average”, to “I have had bigger” to something along the lines of “do you really want me to be honest…..well in that case it’s the smallest I have ever seen”.

I can’t say exactly when, but somewhere along the way I realised it didn’t matter anymore. I asked my wife to tell me about her previous partners and realised I was actually getting off hearing how they were all bigger than me, some so much bigger. I was officially small and proud. I had managed to turn an insecurity into an incredible fetish.

This weakening of my sense of manhood was perhaps the beginning of my journey into submission.